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It's Kind of Frustrating
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Certain fandoms have always been difficult for me for some reason.
Since re-entering the FFVII fandom, I feel like I'm always having to defend myself for my unique interpretations of some characters and events. I've always been able to see things from different perspectives, but it gets frustrating. One of the biggest ones with the FFVII compilation has been with Yazoo.
According to SquareEnix, Yazoo is the manifestation of Sephiroth's allure, so that's a given. In Advent Children Complete, he does not get a whole lot of development, so there has always been some slightly different takes on him within the fandom. I was one of the fans who actually attempted fanworks before the film was even released, so I was certainly guilty of not doing things very IC at the time. As of now, I am working hard to portray him in the way I truly see him after examining the movie.
Most fans seem to see him as being very masculine and feminine only in regards to his long hair. A lot also portray him as being strong, independent, and "seme". But I completely disagree with this.
For one thing, he wears his outfit like a dress, zipped all the way up and down unless fighting or on his bike. He speaks softly, moves elegantly, and giggles a lot during battle. Another thing is how he obeys his brothers. Of course he and Loz both obey Kadaj, but at the monument, he looked to Loz as if asking permission before summoning the Shadow Creepers. He also only acted alone when he kidnapped the children, which took no fighting skills. He otherwise is always acting as if he is a sidekick to Loz. I think Yazoo is a really talented fighter and I'm sure he's strong because he's a remnant of Sephiroth, but I do feel his fighting abilities are lacking in comparison with his brothers'. Kadaj moves super quickly like lightning, which gave Cloud a hard time and caused him to become overpowered at the Forgotten City. Loz, of course, is amazingly strong. Yazoo is a long-range fighter with his gun and seems to mostly assist Loz. Yes, he can do hand-to-hand combat, such as against Reno (who isn't really the most powerful guy on the Planet), but I see him as matching Tifa in this at best. I think there's a reason he never fought alone, and possibly a reason Loz was staring up at him with distraction when he and Reno jumped up to fight during the monument scene. Concern, perhaps? Maybe just distraction, but I think it could be.
To me, Yazoo is confident, cool, feminine, and alluring, but desires to be an "uke" by someone earning it. I think he likes to try to intimidate or provoke people, but once he sees he is overpowered, such as by his brothers, he turns submissive -- but with attitude -- to them. Not necessarily as being weak-willed (which would be very unSephiroth-like), but rather as a show of respect from his normal projection and as a way to gracefully assimilate with those who can take him.
I'm not saying other people are wrong, just that I feel my interpretation is also valid. I think my view should be considered IC as much as others because I am using analysis from the film in a different perspective. You have every right to disagree with me, but I get down and irritated when people tell me my version of him is OoC and don't respect it. Please give me a chance and let us all get along.
Since re-entering the FFVII fandom, I feel like I'm always having to defend myself for my unique interpretations of some characters and events. I've always been able to see things from different perspectives, but it gets frustrating. One of the biggest ones with the FFVII compilation has been with Yazoo.
According to SquareEnix, Yazoo is the manifestation of Sephiroth's allure, so that's a given. In Advent Children Complete, he does not get a whole lot of development, so there has always been some slightly different takes on him within the fandom. I was one of the fans who actually attempted fanworks before the film was even released, so I was certainly guilty of not doing things very IC at the time. As of now, I am working hard to portray him in the way I truly see him after examining the movie.
Most fans seem to see him as being very masculine and feminine only in regards to his long hair. A lot also portray him as being strong, independent, and "seme". But I completely disagree with this.
For one thing, he wears his outfit like a dress, zipped all the way up and down unless fighting or on his bike. He speaks softly, moves elegantly, and giggles a lot during battle. Another thing is how he obeys his brothers. Of course he and Loz both obey Kadaj, but at the monument, he looked to Loz as if asking permission before summoning the Shadow Creepers. He also only acted alone when he kidnapped the children, which took no fighting skills. He otherwise is always acting as if he is a sidekick to Loz. I think Yazoo is a really talented fighter and I'm sure he's strong because he's a remnant of Sephiroth, but I do feel his fighting abilities are lacking in comparison with his brothers'. Kadaj moves super quickly like lightning, which gave Cloud a hard time and caused him to become overpowered at the Forgotten City. Loz, of course, is amazingly strong. Yazoo is a long-range fighter with his gun and seems to mostly assist Loz. Yes, he can do hand-to-hand combat, such as against Reno (who isn't really the most powerful guy on the Planet), but I see him as matching Tifa in this at best. I think there's a reason he never fought alone, and possibly a reason Loz was staring up at him with distraction when he and Reno jumped up to fight during the monument scene. Concern, perhaps? Maybe just distraction, but I think it could be.
To me, Yazoo is confident, cool, feminine, and alluring, but desires to be an "uke" by someone earning it. I think he likes to try to intimidate or provoke people, but once he sees he is overpowered, such as by his brothers, he turns submissive -- but with attitude -- to them. Not necessarily as being weak-willed (which would be very unSephiroth-like), but rather as a show of respect from his normal projection and as a way to gracefully assimilate with those who can take him.
I'm not saying other people are wrong, just that I feel my interpretation is also valid. I think my view should be considered IC as much as others because I am using analysis from the film in a different perspective. You have every right to disagree with me, but I get down and irritated when people tell me my version of him is OoC and don't respect it. Please give me a chance and let us all get along.
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Turning WAV Into an Original Story
6 min read
To my dearests~
I have been through what feels like a roller coaster for the last several years. As probably not many of you know, I lived in Japan for a year doing study abroad, and had the most amazing time of my life. I actually got to see Kamijo live in concert twice, and got to meet him briefly and get his autograph at a meet and greet (He said "Bonjour" to me -faints-). I also saw Jupiter live, and met Yuki and Teru at a meet-and-greet, and touched Hizaki's thumb there and touched his knee at the concert (I almost became a pancake doing this)! When I met Yuki, he saw that the back of my lace-up ouji shirt was undone, so he tied it for me and said in English, "No, it was my pleasure." ;u;
I didn't want to say all of this before because I didn't want it to seem like bragging. I feel so blessed to have experienced this after being a fan for so many years. Now makes 9 years that I've been their fan. Why I'm telling you now is its relevance to what has effected my presence here and on my Facebook (Neo Nebula).
I returned to Japan in early 2015, only to be rejected by my family, and to see things get worse than they were before my departure. Before returning, I paid a fortune to a school in Japan to attend as an intention to graduate from there. Unfortunately, I was unable to do it as I could not get a private loan to pay for it, so I lost a lot of money. I decided I would graduate in the US so that I could afterward apply for a job in Japan instead as an English as a Second Language teacher.
As most of you know, as I've been fairly open about it, I have health issues that heavily effect daily things in my life. I have applied to more than a dozen positions in the Kanto area over the past year, and have had nothing but heartache and disappointment. I had agents that were going to help me find a job, but after their first find turned me down for my health, they have disappeared, seemingly having dropped me because of it. I finally had another interview last week, only to have the same sort of result. Everyone I have spoken to who does this kind of work doesn't see how my health issues are relevant, but the interviewers ask me if my back, etc. are in good shape, so I cannot lie regardless.
That, along with a lot of hurt and drama with my family I won't burden you with, has made it so hard to feel like getting on here and being sociable. Even though I honestly miss being a part of DA and talking with several of you, I hate feeling depressing while doing it because I want to be someone who uplifts others, not bring them down. I think you can see that in my fanfiction, "We Are Versailles".
However, that is not the only reason WAV has been delayed after I promised to continue onto it. While returning to my old but beloved (by myself, anyway) story with a wiser and fresher mind, I started having new visions. I have wanted for years to do a story about princes and Medieval-ish stuff, but always failed at it. I looked at this fanfic, which I truly feel is my best piece of work overall, and think, "about 80% of the stuff in this is my own original concept. If I can just take out the Versailles and fill it with my old and new stuff, could I have something really awesome?" Well, I'm trying to find out! It's too hard doing two similar stories like this, although there are some drastic changes so far with my original, which also makes it hard to let go of the fun I'm having with WAV. However, WAV is ancient and I keep going on haitus with it, so maybe it's time to finally let it "rest".
Rest as in, I need to hurry and post the few "last chapters" of the main story line I promised, type-up a much-needed document of all the answers and what my plans were for later chapters, and have a little fun with something like spin-offs/ one-shots/ etc. based on this storyline. I don't know if I'll ever let this story die because it is so close to my heart, and I love Versailles now as much as I ever did. One of the reasons it's close to my heart is it helped me deal with losing Jasmine You, and because I met some great people online while doing it. I got an amazing amount of positive feedback, views, favorites, fun chats . . . it made me feel so happy. Working on this and having this kind of relationship with you will always be a light in my heart. It means more than me than I know how to appropriately express; I cannot thank you enough.
I would love if you would check out the original coming from WAV whenever I find the right way to present it. I'm not really sure how to go about it, and I'm thinking of doing it in an animated TV-series script format with character images and scene images to accompany it. It's been my dream since childhood to make a cartoon or video game, but I don't really know if I should make a website for it or what. If I ever figure it out, I will post a link here on my DA page. If you like WAV, I really think you'll like it.
Anyway, thank you for reading this post and for being there for me.
With much love,
Lost-Remnant
I have been through what feels like a roller coaster for the last several years. As probably not many of you know, I lived in Japan for a year doing study abroad, and had the most amazing time of my life. I actually got to see Kamijo live in concert twice, and got to meet him briefly and get his autograph at a meet and greet (He said "Bonjour" to me -faints-). I also saw Jupiter live, and met Yuki and Teru at a meet-and-greet, and touched Hizaki's thumb there and touched his knee at the concert (I almost became a pancake doing this)! When I met Yuki, he saw that the back of my lace-up ouji shirt was undone, so he tied it for me and said in English, "No, it was my pleasure." ;u;
I didn't want to say all of this before because I didn't want it to seem like bragging. I feel so blessed to have experienced this after being a fan for so many years. Now makes 9 years that I've been their fan. Why I'm telling you now is its relevance to what has effected my presence here and on my Facebook (Neo Nebula).
I returned to Japan in early 2015, only to be rejected by my family, and to see things get worse than they were before my departure. Before returning, I paid a fortune to a school in Japan to attend as an intention to graduate from there. Unfortunately, I was unable to do it as I could not get a private loan to pay for it, so I lost a lot of money. I decided I would graduate in the US so that I could afterward apply for a job in Japan instead as an English as a Second Language teacher.
As most of you know, as I've been fairly open about it, I have health issues that heavily effect daily things in my life. I have applied to more than a dozen positions in the Kanto area over the past year, and have had nothing but heartache and disappointment. I had agents that were going to help me find a job, but after their first find turned me down for my health, they have disappeared, seemingly having dropped me because of it. I finally had another interview last week, only to have the same sort of result. Everyone I have spoken to who does this kind of work doesn't see how my health issues are relevant, but the interviewers ask me if my back, etc. are in good shape, so I cannot lie regardless.
That, along with a lot of hurt and drama with my family I won't burden you with, has made it so hard to feel like getting on here and being sociable. Even though I honestly miss being a part of DA and talking with several of you, I hate feeling depressing while doing it because I want to be someone who uplifts others, not bring them down. I think you can see that in my fanfiction, "We Are Versailles".
However, that is not the only reason WAV has been delayed after I promised to continue onto it. While returning to my old but beloved (by myself, anyway) story with a wiser and fresher mind, I started having new visions. I have wanted for years to do a story about princes and Medieval-ish stuff, but always failed at it. I looked at this fanfic, which I truly feel is my best piece of work overall, and think, "about 80% of the stuff in this is my own original concept. If I can just take out the Versailles and fill it with my old and new stuff, could I have something really awesome?" Well, I'm trying to find out! It's too hard doing two similar stories like this, although there are some drastic changes so far with my original, which also makes it hard to let go of the fun I'm having with WAV. However, WAV is ancient and I keep going on haitus with it, so maybe it's time to finally let it "rest".
Rest as in, I need to hurry and post the few "last chapters" of the main story line I promised, type-up a much-needed document of all the answers and what my plans were for later chapters, and have a little fun with something like spin-offs/ one-shots/ etc. based on this storyline. I don't know if I'll ever let this story die because it is so close to my heart, and I love Versailles now as much as I ever did. One of the reasons it's close to my heart is it helped me deal with losing Jasmine You, and because I met some great people online while doing it. I got an amazing amount of positive feedback, views, favorites, fun chats . . . it made me feel so happy. Working on this and having this kind of relationship with you will always be a light in my heart. It means more than me than I know how to appropriately express; I cannot thank you enough. I would love if you would check out the original coming from WAV whenever I find the right way to present it. I'm not really sure how to go about it, and I'm thinking of doing it in an animated TV-series script format with character images and scene images to accompany it. It's been my dream since childhood to make a cartoon or video game, but I don't really know if I should make a website for it or what. If I ever figure it out, I will post a link here on my DA page. If you like WAV, I really think you'll like it.
Anyway, thank you for reading this post and for being there for me.
With much love,
Lost-Remnant
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Happy New Year!!!
2 min read
Hello! I am not sure if anyone still looks at this account or not, but I hope you will be soon! I am starting off the new year by posting a new chapter of "We Are Versailles"!!! I doubt any of my old readers care, but I hope at least one person will. I started this story over 7 years ago, and it went on for a few years. I had a few brief hiatuses with it, and the last chapter was posted in 2013. I lost my inspiration when Versailles themselves went on hiatus, and now that they are back, I wanted to be back, too! I am trying to wrap up the story, which means tying a lot of loose ends and providing an ending. This is still going to take a lot of chapters, so I hope I am up to finally giving it an end.
I lost a lot of readers with chapter 17, and the awfulness continued through to about 24 or later. At that time, I lost a hold of my original vision and was dealing with a lot of bad stuff in college life that brought me down. I have worked hard on chapters 30 - 32 (which are pretty much done now), and guarantee they are much better than those! If you would like to start reading my story and want to skip the awful chapters, I would be happy to give you a summary of the important parts you would miss. Anyway, I hope you will give my story a chance and tell me what you think of it!
I lost a lot of readers with chapter 17, and the awfulness continued through to about 24 or later. At that time, I lost a hold of my original vision and was dealing with a lot of bad stuff in college life that brought me down. I have worked hard on chapters 30 - 32 (which are pretty much done now), and guarantee they are much better than those! If you would like to start reading my story and want to skip the awful chapters, I would be happy to give you a summary of the important parts you would miss. Anyway, I hope you will give my story a chance and tell me what you think of it!
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Suggested Social Media Sites
2 min read
So, I'm trying to come back to my alternate internet life. I had a long pause because of being busy and/or depressed/anxious,etc. crap. But I think I'm also seeing a lack of motivation because of the way the internet is changing. While having those issues, I have confined myself to just a few personal accounts, and I haven't let myself meet many new people who have similar interests to me. I think of Deviant Art and my Neo-Nebula facebook account as being my main places with my alternate ID, and since I neglected facebook, I'm sad to see some of my friends have unfriended me and left me behind. I also don't feel that I can easily meet new people there. I'm not really sure of what to do about this. DeviantArt has been my main source of this for about the last 10 years, and before that, FanFiction.net forums was. The thing is, I'm not always wanting to browse through artwork and fanfics on DA to connect with people. I wish I could find something similar to facebook to meet people, but more open? I don't know. And I also find it difficult to have multiple accounts across social media sites, like Instagram. :\ Any suggestions would be great. I'm really missing this part of my life.
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Versailles Yaoi One-shot Posted + Update
2 min read
Hello, dearests!!! 
I have posted a one-shot Versailles yaoi story as a one-shot yaoi trade with a new friend. Because of it's content, I don't think it's actually allowed on DA, so I posted it on LiveJournal. If you're interested, please read and tell me what you think! neo-nebula.livejournal.com/118…
That was my break. Now I'm back to work on WAV Ch.29 II . . . again!
My hard drive got wiped clean, so I'm having to redo the once perfect chapter, and so far, I think it's not as good as it was before. I'm half way through redoing it, though, and I'm not working overtime this week like I had the past two weeks, so hopefully that will be done and up soon.
Also, you might actually SEE Marshmallow soon!
I hope you will enjoy her!
I love you!
I have posted a one-shot Versailles yaoi story as a one-shot yaoi trade with a new friend. Because of it's content, I don't think it's actually allowed on DA, so I posted it on LiveJournal. If you're interested, please read and tell me what you think! neo-nebula.livejournal.com/118…
That was my break. Now I'm back to work on WAV Ch.29 II . . . again!
My hard drive got wiped clean, so I'm having to redo the once perfect chapter, and so far, I think it's not as good as it was before. I'm half way through redoing it, though, and I'm not working overtime this week like I had the past two weeks, so hopefully that will be done and up soon.Also, you might actually SEE Marshmallow soon!
I hope you will enjoy her! I love you!
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